More Weirdness

Last night I had some rather strange dreams again. It seems that most of my recent dreams include apartment scenes from various apartment or housing situations. Last night is an example of such.

One dream was about my new apartment in which it had been broken into and various things had been stolen. First my DVDs were stolen and then on a second occasion, my television and computer were stolen. The odd thing about the items getting stolen is that the burglar left my Blackberry and replaced the television with a very old model and also left a lamp behind.

I called the police in the dream but after 4 hours they still had not showed up. Various people were in my apartment though and I was trying to discover how the buglar got inside my apartment because there was no signs of how they broke in. I ended up discovering it was through a window in which the pane had been loose.

There wasn't really an ending to this dream.

A second dream was in yet another apartment. I was with a few other people in an apartment. They were scared because they saw a rat and were afraid that it would bite their small child. The rat was hiding inside a rolled up rug and I helped to get him out. The people were alarmed when I picked up the rat and showed that it had no interest in biting me, but actually was kind of affectionate. I think that this dream was influenced by the mouse that frequents my office. I am attempting to catch him using a Havahart trap and am hoping to keep him as a pet. My office however, has set several traps to kill it including those super inhumane sticky paper traps as well as the traditional mouse trap with fake cheese.

A third dream involved drinking in the Boston area, friends, some odd holiday, and modes of transportation. I was trying to get to various bars though I am not really sure why. Some friends who are not in the Boston area were in my dream and they resided in the Boston area in my dream. I kept missing buses and trains I was trying to ride in the dream as well. Oddness.

My fourth dream that I remember involved family. We were in some type of family situation and my Grandmother was in the dream. My Grandma has vascular dementia in real life and that was also present in the dream. At certain points I was trying to help her when she was unsure of her surroundings. At some point I was trying to help her take a shower. I dunno.

So yeah, lots of dreams last night even though some of the details are not there. What do you guys think?

Lack of Sleep + Outside Influences = Weirdness

Well last night's dreams sure were interesting!

I can piece together some of the outside influences though, which is actually rare for me. Since I didn't have time to write everything down when I first woke up, there are some details that I have forgotten. I am also not sure about the timing of the dreams, things seemed to jump all over the place.

One dream had something horrible happen on a Monday night. Things only got worse on Tuesday and by Wednesday I was having frequent panic attacks and was pretty much useless. Part of this dream took place at work. One of the bad things that had happened was that I had my accounts hacked and had all sorts of compromised information. (This is related to a friend whose email was hacked.) In the dream, my bosses and co-workers were in general very understanding. They started to get a little annoyed with my anxiety over things though.

At some point I had escaped the building to go eat thinking it was lunch time when it was actually three hours earlier than I thought. My clocks were all wrong. My watch showed a different time than my computer and so on. A co-worker purposefully set a clock ahead and tried to make me think I was late to my therapy appointment.

The work dream seemed to last forever and had all sorts of mini-stories included.

One mini-story was that a friend's picture had been taken on her in her bra and underwear and sent throughout the office and possibly farther.

Another was that there was some poisonous foods in a museum/shopping center that were causing people to fall into a sleep of sorts as if they were gassed. Me and a guy (not sure who he was...not from anyone I know) were trying to track down the guy responsible. This was influenced by an episode of NCIS I had watched before going to bed in which a gas was emitted into a school and made everyone sleep. He he, one of the guilty foods was this weird long meaty item and when we asked the chef, it was a Sumo wrestler's penis, ha ha ha ha!

At some point I was in an elevator trying to escape something and the elevator was going all over the place and eventually came detached from the building completely, sliding across the parking lot.

The unconsciousness reappeared again in the office setting. People on one half of the floor were dropping and I was trying to get some help to carry them.

Another dream had me and yet another co-worker in a park of some sort. I was enjoying the beautiful day and beautiful scenery and then I noticed a gorgeous exotic looking bird. The bird was blue with yellow, orange and green. The bird flew down to me and at some point switched from this bird into an owl. The owl started talking to me and followed me over to where my co-worker was standing.

That is all I remember. Strange.

Recent Dreams/Nightmares

A few days ago I had a dream where I was trying to get somewhere, apparently treatment in this dream, but I kept getting lost. I couldn't get on the right path. I couldn't catch whatever bus or train I needed to. In general, I was completely lost. I would ask people how to get to such-and-such and they would lead me in the right direction, only to have me screw it up by getting turned around once any direction or street change needed to be taken. Somehow I ended up at my parents' house. My Mom was furious at me for continually having such situations. She agreed to take me to work (not the location I initially dreamed.) Various little things kept this from happening though.

When I woke up I realized I was dreaming about being late and being unable to get anywhere because I was late to work.


Then last night I had a nightmare. It involved murders, twins, and being captured. I can't really explain the story though.

Last night I also had a dream where I was in my extremely messy apartment (like it is now) and all of a sudden there were leaks in the ceiling in random places. I was wondering where the leaks were coming from and how to get them to stop. I also was scared to let the building manager know because of the mess.

It's Been Quite a While

Sorry for the long absence. I haven't been writing my dreams down at all lately. I know that most of April, May, June, and July were filled with dreams that involved treatment for eating disorders, various forms of housing, and family crises. I know the reason for the treatment dreams. I was not doing well at all in regards to my eating disorder. I think my subconscious knew I needed more intensive care long before I was ready to face it.

As far as the other themes, I have not a clue.

Hopefully I will start recording my dreams more now that things have calmed down some.

Fighting

The other day I slept for quite a few hours and had a few dreams. The dreams all had one thing that tied them together though...fighting. I was fighting someone physically in each of the dreams! I am not sure what this means...maybe I feel like I am struggling against others? Maybe I am fighting against myself? Maybe I am keeping anger inside and this is my way of getting it out? Any insight people?

Oh yeah, and for those who don't know, my other blog has moved to here.

Bullies and Dolphins

So last night I dreamt that I was hiding in my closet from a bully. I could see him through a small hole in the door. I was also a boy apparently. He was trying to get me to come out of the closet but I knew that there would be repricussions for doing so. Then all of a sudden he had to leave and go home and invited me to join him the next day in his backyard. I did that and he made fun of the fact that I was afraid of the wasps around. I kept having to run from the wasps.

I was suddenly in my Mom's backyard. I wqas looking around at things, realizing I shouldn't have been afraid when a dolphin came up the driveway. It was obviously in need of water. I mentioned getting the hose but my Mom said it would need salt water and that she would go gather supplies and would be right back. As I was wetting the dolphin with fresh water, waiting for my Mom to return, a cat came up to the dolphin and licked it, giving it a bath. The dolphin then licked the cat back. Then my alarm woke me up so who knows what would have happened with the dolphin.

Me? Singing? Yeah, right!

Last night was filled with dreams and a few nightmares. One involved me in high school or something, trying to get in with the popular girls. It even had me on stage singing! Anyone who knows me knows I do not sing in front of anyone, so that was rather hilarious.

The nightmare that just KEPT reoccurring was about people making a horror movie...but damn it was scary. Chainsaws, knives, etc were used. I think I was IN the horror movie, but it still scared me.